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backafterall;shensidered;whyshouldshespeak
becauseitisright;herinstincttoldher;righttoexpose
oneselfanbeingsshe
flinuchofonealready
strippedbaresothingshestkeepofherown
butifshedidkeepsothingofherodiately
shefiguredaniuredlife;ntinuingforaniense
period;thesafeelingslivingforever;neitherdwindling
norchanginghintheringofathickstonewall
theiginationofthislonelinessfrightenedher;and
yettospeaktoloseherloneliness;forithadalready
beedeartoher;wasbeyondherpower
herhandofkatharinesskirt;
and;fingeringalineoffur;shebentherheadasifto
exaneit
“ilikethisfur;”shesaid;“ilikeyourclothesandyou
stntthinkthatioingtorryralph;”shentinued;
inthesatone;“beeat
allheeoneelse”herheadreinedbent;
andherhandstillrestedupontheskirt
“itsashabbyolddress;”saidkatharine;andtheonly
signthatryshatshespoke
halittlejerk
“youdontndtellingyouthat”saidry;raising
herself
“no;no;”saidkatharine;“butyourestaken;arent
you”shefortable;disyed;
indeed;disillusionedshedislikedthetuthingshad
takenquiteintenselytheindecencyofitafflictedher
thesufferingiliedbythetoneappalledhershelooked
atryfurtively;heyesthatwerefullofapprehension
butifshehadhopedtofindthatthesewordshad
beenspokeneaning;
shearylaybackinherchair;
froly;andlooking;katharihought;asif
shehadlivedfifteenyearsorsointhespaceofafew
nutes
“therearesothings;dontyouthink;thatonecant
bestakenabout”rysaid;quietlyandalstldly
“thatiseaboutthisquestionofbeingin
loveivealyselfuponbeingreasonable;”
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nightandday
sheadded“ididntthinkiuldhavefeltthisian
iftheotherpersondidntiyself
pretend”hereshepaused“for;yousee;katharine;”she
proceeded;rousingherselfandspeakinghgreater
energy;“ianlovetheresnodoubtaboutthatibr 》
trendouslyinlovehralph”thelittleforward
shakeofherhead;ogether
hherbrighterlor;gaveheranappearanceatonce
proudanddefiant
katharihoughttoherself;“thatshofeelsthen”
shehesitated;hafeelingthatitforherto
speak;andthensaid;inaloone;“youvegotthat”
“yes;”saidry;“ivegotthatonenotbein
lovebutididntantotalkaboutthat;ionly
edyoutoknoherthingitotell
you”shepaused“ihaventanyauthorityfroalph
tosayit;butiureofthishesinlovehyou”
katharinelookedatheragain;asifherfirstglance
sthavebeendeluded;for;surely;therestbeso
outaryalkinginanexcited;orbewildered;
orfantasticnneo;shestillfrowned;asif
shesoughtherhroughtheclausesofadifficult
argunt;butshestilllookedrelikeonewhoreasons
thanonewhofeels
“thatprovesthatyourestakenutterlystaken;”
saidkatharine;speakingreasonably;tooshehadnoneed
toverifythestakebyaglanceatheroions;
peduponher
ndthatifralphhadanyfeelingtowasone
ofatteranother
thought;andry;nohatshehadstatedthefact;did
notseektoproveit;buttriedtoexplaintoherself;rather
thantokatharine;hertivesinkingthestatent
shehadnervedherselftodoelargeandierious
instinctdendedherdoing;shehadbeens
onthebreastofakoning
“ivetoldyou;”shesaid;“becauseiyoutohelp
idontibr 》
fearfullyjealoustheonlyhought;otell
you”
shehesitated;andgropedinherendeavortokeher
feelingscleartoherself
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virginiawoolf
“ifitellyou;thenjealous;i
tetedtodosothingfrightfully
an;iaketellyoui
findtalkingsodiffiei
shouldshutitupinndyes;thatsafraid
ofgoingaboutethinginndalllife
thatneverchangesifinditsodifficulttochangewhen
ithinkathingsopthinkingitwrong;
andralpheright;isee;hattheres
nosuchthingasrightandean;
asjudgingpeople”
“ralphdenhaaidthat”saidkatharine;hnsiderable
indignationinordertohaveproducedsuchsuffering
inry;itseedtoherthathesthavebehaved
eedto
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herthathehad
discardedthefriendship;suitedhisnvenience
todoso;efalselyphilosophicaltheoryh
dehisnductalltheoexpress
herselfthus;hadnotryatonceinterruptedher
“no;no;”shesaid;“youdontunderstandiftheres
anyfaultitsneentirely;afterall;ifonechoosesto
runrisks”
hervoicefalteredintosilenceitwasboeinupon
herhopletelyinrunningherriskshehadlosther
prize;lostitsoentirelythatshehadnolongertheright;
intalkingofralph;topresuthatherknowledgeof
hiupplantedallotherknopletely
possessedherlove;sincehisshareinitful;
andnoakethingsyetrebitter;herclear
visionoftheulousand
uncertain;becauseanotheessofitfeelingher
desirefortheoldunsharedinticytoogreattobeboe
houttears;sherose;othefartherendofthe
rooheldtheastered
forantthegriefitselfignoble;thesting
ofitlayinthefactthatshehadbeenledtothisactof
treacheryagainstherselftrapped;cheated;robbed;first
byralphandthenbykatharine;sheseedalldissolved
inhuliation;andbereftofanythingsheuldcallher
oearsofnher
cheeksbuttears;atleast;sheuldntrol;andwould
thisinstant;andthen;tuing;sheharine;
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nightandday
andretrieveuldberetrievedofthellapseof
herurage
shetuedkatharinehadnotved;shewasleaning
alittleforothefire
sothingintheattituderendedryofralphsohe
;leaningforherfixedlyinfront
ofhiindfaraing;
untilhebrokeoffary”and
thesilenancetoher;gave
ostdelightfultalkthatshehadeverknown
sothingunfaliarintheposeofthesilentfigure;
sothingstill;sole;signifiadeher
holdherbreathshepausedherthoughtshout
bitteesssheandnfidence
sheoreby
katharinessideryhadnoospeakinthesilence
sheseedtohavelostherisolation;she
oncethesuffererandthepitifulspectatorofsuffering;
sheore
bereft;shenselybeloved
attettoexpressthesesensationsore
over;sheuldnothelpbelievingthat;houtanywords
onherside;theyetilonger
theysatsilent;si